One of the reasons why I left John in the summer was because David knew how to please a girl. He would go down on me like nobodys business. I LOVED it. It was absolutely hard to resist him after he started kissing my inner thighs.
I know John is pretty disgusted by the thought of eating out and what not. =(
If John eats me out, I’ll prolly let him anal me. I think I shall give him that option soon.
My BF lives 6 hours away by car. And hes asked me before if we can video tape ourselves while having sex so we have something to remind us of each other while we’re apart. I said no before, but now I’m contemplating letting him, but me being in full control of the angle and what not to not allow my face to be shown.
Pretty fucking excited. <3
Around the time this photo was taken was when I realized I felt something more with you. I realized I could fall hard in love with you if I allowed myself to. And I’ve done a good job preventing it.
I guess its easy to fall in love with your bestfriend. The only problem is making it all work. I’ve been there through everything. We were both there when we first fell in love and got our hearts broken. We were there when we graduated high school. We were there for each other through deaths.
I love him. And I have too much pride to ever let him know. I could fall IN LOVE with him, if I chose to but I’m NOT putting myself in a position to get hurt again. Its not worth it. I know how he is. He cheated on his last two girlfriends. I wouldn’t at all be surprised if he cheated on me too. And I don’t care that he said he was falling in love with me too. I don’t believe it. Because how can you love someone you don’t respect. He doesn’t respect me.
I am still constantly thinking about him everyday. I miss waking up next to him in the morning. I think its one of the BEST feelings in the world to wake up next to your bestfriend, especially one you love. He said he would change for me. But I don’t believe that either. I hate that I have no faith in him. But nothing he has ever done would make be believe that hes true.
I wish I could believe him.
I wish I could wake up next to him.
I wish I wasn’t so prideful.
I wish I could fall in love with him the way I want to.
You can’t help who you fall in love with.
You can’t help when you start to fall in love.
You can’t help why you’re falling in love.
You can only admit that you’re in love..
and maybe I am… in love with my bestfriend. .. =\
Pretty Woman
In the movie Pretty Woman.. Julia Roberts states she can’t/won’t kiss on the mouth because its too intimate. I agree 100%.
I would rather have sex with a guy than make out with him.
The Homewrecker.
As much as I try and tell myself I am not… I pretty much am.
I guess I’m just not girlfriend material. Because guys will always cheat on their girlfriends to be with me, but yet I can never be with someone. I just don’t get it. I find myself wrapped in between shit ALWAYS. And ususally for hte most part I don’t care being the girl that guys cheat on their girl for, that’s not my problem.
I don’t know why hes different. I don’t know why for some reason hes not just another one night stand I cant get out of my head. It’s ridiculous. He’s one of those guys who I genuinely like for their personality and not just based upon looks and sexual shit.I how how he tells me I’m beautiful. I love how he kisses my hand for no reason.
All the good ones are taken for a reason..
There is a reason..
There is a reason why I try and only date guys over 6ft tall.
I’m not exactly the smallest girl. And I need someone who is able to manhandle me in bed. I don’t want to feel as if I’m going to break the guy I am having sex with.
Revenge.
So for the last month or so I spent prolly about 4 days of my week with this fool, lets call him ‘Jerald’. Jerald and I had met though a mutual friend and we hung out casusally every once in a while, it was whatever.
Once our mutual friend left after summer was over back to school was when we really started getting close. And let me get put this out there, I DON’T ever make an effort to see people or spend time with people. It’s just not part of me. I don’t spend time with people unless you are my bestfriend “Charles”, [who happens to be the one guy that introduced us] haha.
Well on Halloween night he had asked me to come over after I was done with whatever party I was at. Naturally he was texting me drunk asking me to come over. And his exgirlfriend was over who I have no problem with but apparently he does and was mad that she was over. After everyone had left and the rest of his roommates had gone into their own rooms to pass out, we sat on the couch and cuddled watching a movie. Eventually his drunkness/tiredness caught up with him and he started babbling about how I invited his exgirlfriend to his house and all this shit. Which I was not down with. So I got up and left. After being clearly upset by what he said to me he text me to apologize and finally admitting to liking me. Psh - Whatever! I straight up told him that I believed he and his exgirlfriend have some unresolved issues. Which he then told me no that he thinks his exgirlfriend is psycho and was upset that I didnt want to be with him. Obviously I told him it wasn’t going to work out between me and him. Hahah.
Even though I really did like him, I knew I’d never want to be with him. I can’t be with someone who smokes, drinks excessively, and smokes weed. Its just not me. Plus, hes like 5’10”, prolly like.. 155lbs?. Way too skinny for me. I’m not the smallest of girls. Even though hes a good 5inches taller than I, I’m 5’4, 125lbs. Feel like I would break him. I like it rough and like to be thrown around. Something I’m sure he could not do to me. Haha
Well anyway so last Saturday I went to my friend Gates’ party. Low and behold Jerald was there, not to my dismay though considering Gates’ goes to his parties, it would be natural Jerald would go to Gates’. And his ex ended up there too. HA!
So by the time I got there he was already pretty drunk. And whenever hes drunk we usually end up fighting or arguing so I just wanted to avoid him all together. So whatever he got mad at me because apparently I was being ‘rude’ to him. Something I could care less about. And once he left he called 10 minutes later asking for an apology. So to shut him up and not fight I said sorry only for him not to accept my apology and hang up on me. So I called him back and yelled at him for doing just that.
Later on that night his exgirlfriend took my really good friend “Jeanie” into the bathroom to tell her that her and Jerald fucked 2 weeks ago and that on Halloween night [the same night he and I got into an altercation] they were at the same Halloween party and he was getting mad at her for flirting with other guys..
No one makes me look like a damn fool. It doesn’t even matter the fact that I didn’t want to be with him or that he fucked her. I don’t care. He can do whatever the fuck he wants he’s a big boy. However. I do not appreciate the fact that when I told him I think he has issues with his ex, he told me he didn’t he told me that he thought she was disgusting. I do not appreciate being disrespected and lied to.
I do not give bullshit, nor do I take bullshit.
Ironically our good friend Charles was in town this same weekend. So I called him to have him come over so I could tell him what a scum bag his good friend is. Because they are really good friends, but Charles and I are closer. So it was already about 3 in the morning when Charles came over to talk to me and he had had a long day so he wanted to crash at my crib. So he did it is not out of the ordinary for him to sleep over and us cuddle together. That’s just what we do since we’re close. One thing led to another and we did not have sex, but I did end up giving him head. Which he thoroughly enjoyed. HA!
Its such a girl thing to go and do something with a guys bestfriend after hes fucked up. But what can I say. He deserved it.
4 years later..
So basically its been about 4 years since I’ve started having sex. [Yes, yes the blog is called “devirginizing dora”. but I’m already devirginized. Haha but basically its all about sex-capades.]
And I want to say its been about 3.5 years since I had my first orgasm. I was having sex for a good.. 8 months before I actually had an orgasm. [BAH! Shows how good in bed these fools are that I was having sex with. Hahaha!]
- But thats besides the point. -
Tonight, I was randomly horny. So obviously I ended up masturbating with my dildo I bought this summer. (My friend and I bought matching dildos together. Haha!) And after I was done I went into the bathroom to clean it off when I found obvious signs of ‘splatter’, or however I should phrase it. And I thought .. “I’m a squirter!?” Hahah then I saw a streak on my leg, that was clearly a sign of squirting. I’m quite embarrassed.
But then again, there’s no other way I would have known. Only 2 of my ex-partners have gone down on me. -UGH Which is terrible.- Basically out of the handful of guys I’ve been with only one has been able to make me climax. I guess I’m just high maintenance when it comes to sex. I need to get it right. Haha
Brandonianae
I’ve been with my handful of white guys, and never in my encounters have I met such a guy with such little to offer a woman. Granted hes only around 5’9” and about 150lbs, I shouldn’t be too surprised. But when I can stick my whole mouth down on a guy with EASE we’ve got a problem. I barely even got to the point where I needed to deep throat anything, because it could barely reach that far down my mouth. How pathetic! Ha!
Though I’ve been with a lot of guys, I KNOW I’m still tight. I’ve never had a guy ever tell me I’m loose. So to be intimate with him and to even barely feel him make an impact and pleasure me while having sex was sad! I got off more when he was fingering me, than while he was actually inside me.
Oddly enough, I found myself messing around with this failure of a male species more than once. It could be the fact that he’s a good kisser or the fact that he’s a D-1 college baseball player. Ha! Not that I actually like baseball, because I think its verrry boring. Ha. I guess there’s something intriguing about him. Plus he’s got an ‘okay’ personality, minus the fact that he calls me baby in bed.
Tell me why that is? I don’t understand why if you know its a one-night stand, or a random couple of hook ups guys feel the need to try and call you baby or babe. It’s not sexy or cute. Just annoying in my opinion. All my mind really wants to say is “I’m not your babe. I’m not your baby. Just fuck me, and lets leave it at that.”.
